Fat Tuesday/Selfish thoughts

Went to Bally's this morning. I had every intention of mixing up my cardio a bit. But as soon as I got near the cardio stuff, I went right to the stairmill because it was open. I did 20 minutes (101 floors); level 9 for most of it, but increased it to level 15 for a few seconds. OMG that is tough. The higher the level the faster the stairs go. I'm doing pretty well at level 9. The machine goes all the way up to level 20. I'm fearful of that idea. lol Maybe some day I will be brave and try it. I haven't been tripping, so I guess I'm getting the hang of it.

After the stairmill I went to the weight room and did lower body. Then back to cardio for 30 minutes on the precor. I was then going to go do an easy 10 on the recumbant bike, but passed that darned stairmill -- and it was open again. Decided to just hop on there and do 10 more (51 floors at a level 10). WOOHOOOO

Today I was thinking that maybe I'm being a little bit selfish with all the time I'm putting towards working out. Today is Tuesday. For the past 2 years I spent every Tuesday with Colin out at Children's Hospital for hours and hours. And the rest of the week I would worry about him and how he was feeling and pretty much expected a phone call to come pick him up from school. Now my cell phone doesn't ring! I can't remember the last time he said "mom, I don't feel good". OMG it is so wonderful. There is life after cancer. I know my house needs desperate attention. But so does my body -- so does my self. So I've come to the conclusion that this is not me being selfish. I'm doing this for me -- and it is doing wonders for my self, my mind and my body. I feel good!!

b-fast: 1/2 grapefruit (1); coffee (1)
lunch: egg salad sandwich, same as yesterday (6); sm bowl of mexi soup (2); pickle spear (0) diet pepsi w/lemon (0)
snack: yoplait light apricot mango yogurt (2)
dinner: lean cuisine spinach and mushroom pizza (6); sf orange jello w/cool whip (1)
dessert: chocolate chocolate chip muffin (3)

total points: 22

WATER: XXX