I just returned from another 5.5 mile run/walk. Mostly running. There I was running to the theme song of Mission Impossible as I was going up the hill. That song gets me moving. Other than that I am SO SICK of the ABBA music on my MP3 player. I need to change the music. Clint when you get home tonight, I'm going to need your help. I know, I know, your sick of telling me how to do it. lol Sorry!!
I'm mad at myself. I've lost my focus. I've become consumed by points and the whole food thing. I can't stand it!!! It really ticks me off that I have the motivation to go out and run over 5 miles, yet I can't control myself when it comes to food. I don't know what to do. I also wonder if I REALLY want to lose weight. Maybe I'm one of those people who is hiding behind the extra pounds. Don't want to be noticed. Feel insecure. I know I'm depressed, stressed and worried about 75% of the time these days. Then there is the part of me that thinks I'm being rediculous and just making excuses.
Anyways -- that is where I'm at right now. Trying to "work through" my problems. I hope some day I figure it all out.
1 comment:
YOU HAVE NOT LOST YOUR FOCUS!! YOU ARE BLOGGING ARE YOU?? AND RUNNING LIKE A MARATHON EVERY FREAKING DAY .. girl.. stop worrying about the points sooo much .. I bet you arent going over that much ..and if you are..t he exercise is burning it right off!! relax!!! you look great!!
hugs.
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